Back in Darwin. Back to reality. Back to living the dream. Back to paradise and most of all, back to following something special. Once i figure out what that is, i'll be sure to let you know.
Last time i blogged i was sitting on a matress freezing my ass off. Right now, i'm in shorts and a 'Bintang' singlet sitting under the fan with a strongbow right by my side. Now that's what i call , unreal!
It's funny. I've really enjoyed living up here but in the last week, i have enjoyed it more than i ever have since i've been up here. It kind of doesn't make sence though because i've been working 11 hour days and haven't had a day off yet. I think i'm starting to settle in now and especially, going back down south and seeing that everything is still the same, it made coming back up here even better. It feels good. To be honest, everything is working out so well that i'm waiting for something bad to happen. I think i feel like i don't deserve to be happy as what i am. I know i shouldn't feel like that but i often wonder what i've done right along the way? I'm not to sure.
You know what the best thing is about having friends and family back home? When you go back after not seeing someone for 6 months and it feels like you only seen them yesterday. That's what i call true friends. It felt like i never left and i love that. I love that i love such brilliant people and i love that i've been lucky enough to meet such people. It's such a good feeling to know that they're the ones that you can count on if shit hits the fan. These are the people that i'll never be able to repay. These are the people that should get their asses up here to see me already! I'll have to admit, leaving Port Lincoln was so hard this time around. You know when you arrive somewhere and the first thing you think of is that in 10 days time you have to leave again? For some reason i always do that and i hate myself for letting myself dwell on it before i even reach my destination. In actual fact, i do it everywhere i go. It's not a good traite. But, yes, it seems that everytime i have to say goodbye it gets harder and harder each time. I would say that it has alot to do with growing so close to people, especially Levi. I may be a brick wall most of the time and tend to not let people in, but somehow i'm allowing my stubourn self to let down my guard and let someone so special in. Someone who is playing a big part in how happy i actually am. Someone who i'm willing to put in alot of effort for. I mean if i wasn't prepared for that i wouldn't be travelling across the country every 6 weeks i guess. So there that is. We're making something work that alot of people probably doubted from the start.
Like i mentioned in my last blog about setting myself new goals, i've set myself alot more. I'm going to do it. I want to be the one that did everything i set out to do. Not that i ever make plans, but it'll be to prove it to myself and not you. For me and me only.
Peace and love lovers.
Maz.
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