9th of April 2011. 13:05.

I'm going to refer back to Year 12 to explain the way i feel about a certain situation.

I don't know how many of you out there are reading this, but please bare with me.

Throughout school, you meet new people, you make life long friends, you make friends who you think are life long but aren't, you pretend to be someone different to fit in with people that, deep down, you don't really like. Throughout school you find people who you are truly yourself around and normally these aren't the people you're close with. In some cases you become another person to impress someone else who isn't really being their self either. You can't change this. I think this is the reason why people lose touch after year 12 is over because they've never being able to be themselves. It sucks. Moving away straight after school was finished wasn't such a bad thing. I knew who i wanted to be and i knew who i was. I'm now that person that i wanted to be and for that very reason, i keep in close contact with the people i wasn't so close with at school, but today i am. This proves a point that sometimes you shouldn't try and fit in with society, just be who you are if know one likes it, well they're not worth having around.

I was talking to a lady at work yesterday about being fortunate enough to have a home to come home to, a bed to sleep in and family to love. I left work thinking about this and how thankful i am for the above things. One thing i don't think anyone could live without is friends. I have the worlds best friends. Not only in SA but across the country . I have been fortunate enough to travel when i was younger and to have met many astonishing people. That i am thankful for. It doesn't matter how far away you are, if you're living in a igloo in Alaska, the people that stick in your mind are the people that you admire. I admire you.

What i am trying to say is, i don't think anyone really knows who they are. It's freaking hard to be yourself around people you're trying to impress, but at the end of the day, when that chapter is over ( especially school) you may realise that all that hard work of faking a personality wasn't worth it . Find the people who you are yourself around. As for all of my friends, i once again thankyou for allowing me to be myself, to share a part of myself .

I wish i appreciated what i had more, but really, travelling overseas is something that will teach  and show me how little some people have and how happy they are with the few things they have. I'l refer back to this is a year and hopefully say 'amen maria', now you really know what to be thankful for.

peace and love homie. x